The sky was blue. The clouds were puffy-white. There was a sweet little breeze, and my girl and I had the entire park to ourselves. Swinging side by side, talking and chatting about anything and everything under the Spring sun, a deep-mama sadness came over my heart. Like those clouds above, the sun disappeared, and I felt a heaviness in my heart. Deciding that I didn’t want to keep it stuck inside my chest (bearing the weight of it alone), I spoke the words out loud.
“Evie, I am so so sad that my days of having you at home…all to myself…are going away.” As I spoke the words, the tears came.
Silently, she continued to swing.
“I just love you so very much and though I am really excited for you to go to school, I’m just really going to miss you a whole bunch.”
My girl who loves to talk said nothing.
I continued. “I’ve just really, really loved having you home and being little.”
And then as if she had had enough of my sad speech stuff, she got off the swings and looked me square in the eyes and said the words I needed to hear.
“Mommy, today is not tomorrow! We still have today! School is not until the Fall time!”
Nodding my head while squeezing back a boatload of more tears, I conceded, “You’re right, sweet girl. You’re right. Today is not tomorrow.”
And in that moment and for the rest of the moments at the park, I repeated that phrase (over and over) in my head.
As I watched her bravely ascend the climbing wall…today is not tomorrow.
As I watched her blonde bob glisten in the sunshine…today is not tomorrow.
As I watched her swing her pink kitty in the baby swing…today is not tomorrow.
As I watched her arms grab each of the monkey bars…today is not tomorrow.
And as I repeated that beautiful phrase into the recesses of my heart and mind, I found myself noticing all of the little details. Like a sponge, I was soaking in the moments…sopping up the beauty.
Instead of letting worry wring my heart empty and my mind dry, I chose to embrace the truth of my little girl’s words.
Today is not tomorrow.
And as I spent the rest of our minutes soaking and sopping the beauty of the present moment, the Spirit impressed upon me the words of Matthew 6:34.
Since I memorized it in the NIV version, these are the words I recalled as I chased her around the park.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
The spirit of her words reflected the Spirit of His.
Later, when I got home from the park, I decided to look up the words of Matthew 6 in other versions, and I found myself continually encouraged as I read. Same TRUTH, different words.
And then I landed on the MSG version of Matthew 6:34, and my heart was un-done.
Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.
GIVE YOUR ENTIRE ATTENTION TO WHAT GOD IS DOING RIGHT NOW!!!
I felt like the Spirit hit me over the heart with a 2×4.
Jessica, you are missing how the Lord is working RIGHT now.
You are missing the blessings of today when you are worried about tomorrow.
You can’t soak up the moments of today as you attempt to live in tomorrow.
Stop straddling, Jessica, and stand in the moments where I am working TODAY!
All of it. ALL. OF. IT. was entirely true.
I know we’ve heard it a million times over, but the hard fast truth is…worry is a joy sucker; it’s a moment-stealer; and it’s a blessing-taker! It takes the fears of tomorrow and pushes aside the provisions of today, and it draws us away from the how the Lord is moving in our current moments…how He’s providing for our present!
And isn’t that JUST what the enemy wants???
If we don’t see how the Lord is working and moving in our today, then aren’t we all the more prone to fear tomorrow?!? For truly, isn’t it His faithful track record that gives us hope and faith for the future?!?
BAM. There he is again. That devil! That real, deceitful enemy that thrives on stealing our joy and in turn, squashing His glory. That enemy that loves for us to question the goodness and provision of the Lord. That enemy that relishes in our buying into the lie that He’s holding out on us, and that what we have NOW is not enough for today or tomorrow.
Friends, He IS faithful and He IS enough. And because He IS, there is joy for both today and tomorrow!
As Hebrews 13:8 proclaims, Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever!
We can’t trust that our tomorrow’s will be the same, but we can trust that the same God who is working today will be the same God that is working tomorrow. And for now, we can soak up the joy and sop of the beauty of today’s provisions. For friends, today is NOT tomorrow!